Fell into flow. Made an image – and then another one…
Fell into flow. Made an image – and then another one…
An unread book – or a pile of…
A warm and cosy blanket…
A pillow – or why not three…
being all surrounded
A cup o’ coffee…
No one coming…
No one calling…
peace and quiet
Just I, me and myself…
And all the time in the world
Working on the novel…
Having a 27 inch screen is marvelous! I can have three documents side by side if I want to (and need it) And still be able to comfortably read and write.
Oh, this writing is so fun!
… and yes! I have intentionally blurred the text…
Yes I dream! For a long time I’ve been dreaming about what to do when I retire and will be able to do what I want, when I want.
No huge dreams like traveling around the world – though that would be nice – or buy a small house in the woods somewhere – though that would be even nicer – my present wishes are more close to myself.
My most immediate dreams are to be slimmer and more fit. All this sitting at a desk in front of the computer has its costs. In a way it’s magical, but all magic comes with a price.
So I dream about walking more, biking more, and I see in front of me lovely summerdays when I bike eastwards, into the woodlands, and dwell for a while or two at the shore of some of the lakes.
And as it is! I’ve already started on that project! Since I’ve four kilometers to get myself downtown instead of two, and some uphill on the way home, that alone is a big plus. And hence, also two kilometer closer to the woodlands.
I also dream about mingling more with my friends, and that’s also imaginable. Actually I’ve already started doing that too. At 3 PM today I’ll join a group of ladies here in church, called “The Monday Group”. I know most of them already and I think it will be fun. I’ll also more often attend to the Sunday sermons, and other events here.
And I have friends also elsewhere! Next Friday evening I’m invited to a “mirrored house warming party”! Hehe… by mirrored I mean the opposite of a house warming party. My friend isn’t moving in somewhere. She’s moving out. It’s my ayurvedic therapeut friend who is leaving her present business-place, and she herself called the event – “funeral fiest”.
Other dreams I wish to fulfill, are to read more, write more, take more photos and also do more of meditation and such. Attend to my inner self! My soul! The real me! I do so already, but wish to expand that even further.
At this particular minute, I think I might perhaps prioritize photographing…
I can’t help it, but just the thought of all this makes me so happy. And that I’m about to realize it.
Time passes on, things changes and the sun keeps on shining. Sometimes from behind the clouds, but nevertheless – it’s shining!
Last friday was a kind of a milestone for me. Becoming a retiree, saying Goodbye to this “unemployment-activity-life” I’ve participated in for some time now, and as an extra bonus – moving to this new apartment of mine. It’s wonderful! WONDERFUL!
But that afternoon, last Friday after having (a late) lunch, with coffee and a left-over-piece of that almond cake afterwards, I just sat there in my sofa. I didn’t do much after that. Actually nothing at all but watching some movies and playing endless rounds of patience, all by my self!
LUFTEN GICK UR MIG!!!
(I have absolutely no idea of how that expression can be said in English. ‘I suddenly had no air left in me’? Which shouldn’t be taken literally)
Likewise the entire Saturday, and on Sunday morning my right knee hurt so much I could hardly stand on that leg, no less walk. I had caught a cold, or rather my muscles and stiff joints had done so.
So typical! And to add more fun to this, it snowed and snowed and snowed… and it got colder and colder which certainly isn’t my weather at all… and – I admit – it also became very beautiful. All white and clean, even the branches on trees and bushes got all white. Almost like in a Disney-movie.
Photos? I couldn’t go out!!! Well, a little. Short and slow. Knee-pain and slippery roads don’t go well together. And added to that – I’m a coward…
Okay! I did take some photos! From my patio and from the front of my house.
Funny! How such beautiful motives can end up in such hopelessly boring photos!
And I had to TALK to me! Talk sense to me!
I had to say: Take it easy! You have gone through some huge changes here! Let it take the time it takes!
(I was dreaming of summer and biking and walking and laughing and moving around and writing and feeling young and easy and photographing and making pictures and being fully mobil and active och happy and enjoying life and…. ey!!! You know!!!!!)
And today… I kind of feel… like getting back on the track again…
I have even cleaned up here…
(Havn’t done the dishes though…
I love my apartment!
I love my life!
I love myself!
Everything is just the way it’s supposed to be!
And I feel so relaxed…
It’s Friday – and Friday it was!
And it came out to be really nice!
P was all right, and by all means –
could she really be… otherwise?
Fourteen people gathered,
no possibility neither
to “butter” nor to be un-nice.
I got presents, I got hugs,
I got laughter and I got smiles.
And when they asked how I felt,
I just answered – Wonderful!
It’s the best day of my life!
Not because I was there
with almond cake on the plate
and coffee quite near
It is the sense of freedom
from rules and demands,
to feel the closeness
of friends all around,
and that the start of my new life
finally is here
so close to heaven and earth
living not next to
and last night
the stars so bright
so shiny and close on black velvet sky
long time has gone
since last I’ve seen
since last I’ve been
(this is not “Oops” – this is WOW)
It just can’t be. Not here. Not even here in the south of Sweden by the west coast!
Sun. Blue sky. Almost no wind. Amazing! +8 degrees Celsius – and at least twice that in the sun.
The air was smooth and caressing against my face. It was like being in heaven!
I just had to go for a short walk at lunchtime. This spring feeling won’t last long. Tomorrow, it’s said from the weather forecast, but then it will be cloudy again and not so warm.
Turning around the corner and there it was. The moment of infinite beauty
One just have to cherish the moments of happiness.
Ten seconds! Then you smiled at me.
I my arms, warm and sturdy.
My heart kept beating and beating and beating
I had lost my heart in less then ten seconds.
I lost it when I first laid my eyes on you!