Day: December 27, 2016

A New Path

Am I on a new path?
I would say so. New place in life – recently retired. And soon, a new place to live in… on… at… whatever…
A new city to live in, though it’s actually old and well-known to me.

I throw away things. Give away some. I clean up among photos and files on the computer. Getting rid of the old, letting the new come in.

Soon there will be a new year. 2017. Every New Years Day is seen as a chance for letting go of the old, and letting in the new. Promises are given and there is hope. At least for a while.

30-maj-2009-30Do I have any promises for the new year! No. But I have a sincere intention to write more. To finish those novels and short stories that are worth finishing. And to write new stuff. I intend to write more on the blogs as well. At least for the time being. Then, what’s supposed to happen – will happen. Just wait and see.

Now I have this blog with mostly images. I also have the blog where I write in swedish, and less than a week ago I started new blog, where I’ll write – and write in English. Havn’t figured out yet if I should have a specific theme like food och something, but I guess I would handcuff myself if I decided to focus only on one topic. That wouldn´t be me then! So I see it as a kind of diary, a place for me to ventilate thoughts and events in a somewhat personal way – not being too personal, though!

Weekly Photo Challenge: Path

Four days

Four days I’ve been almost totally alone.
Not all by my own choice, it just is that way when it’s holidays and with no relatives close by.

It’s odd that it should feel so much worse to be alone on Christmas than on any other days, but it is. I mean, if you didn’t know it was Christmas, would you have felt lonely then? Well, yes, maybe, but not because it was Christmas and everybody else is enjoying themselves with family and friends. And not for four days in a row.

Am I to blame myself for that? Partly, that’s for sure. But not entirely. People who have families and friends nearby don’t think of those of us who are alone. Maybe they’ll send a Merry Christmas-wish through Facebook, but that’s all. And I’m not a Facebook-fan. And would that be enough?

Yes! I sound negative and maybe even a bit depressed now, but I’ve felt very lonely these days, and I’m really glad there are a couple of normal days now, so I can meet my friends and have some nice hours. Not only indulging myself to Netflix. (But I’m really happy I have Netflix.)

Why is it that Christmas – which is about sharing, being together, love, joy – also contains a lot of exclusion? Where are those places where people just can go to? I know of NONE here where I live! Okay! You can visit a church. That’s good per se, and often you can find kindness and togetherness there. But if you don’t want to go to a church, for some reason?

There are hopefully other possibilities as well, at least in other places-cities-countries than here, but what do you do if you have some kind of decease or disabilities? If your body is filled with pain? If you can’t walk probably? If you don’t have a car and somehow can’t travel by bus och metro? What if?

Okay! Stop being negative! Pain or not, family or not – today I can meet friends for at least a couple of hours, and in 5,5 weeks I’ll move back to my hometown where my children and their families lives and hopefully I’ll never again be this alone for an entire Christmas holiday.